Google.

When I search Disney Characters that are emo this is what I give:

Things I Search When I'm Bored.

Things On Google When I Search Disney Characters With Tattoo's.

Guess What We Are Still Alive

2012 is so stupid. We are not dead Okay? Is that okay with you? cause this is stupid. I don't believe in it and I know we are going to live for another couple hundred years. They said we were going to all die in the year 2000 but we didn't and the guy that made people really believe that the world would end is dead and he made everyone believe that the day he died that we were, Humans die everyday but that doesn't mean that we are all going to die right away. CALM DOWN!

How I Am Feeling...

When Life Gives You Lemons, Squirt It In You're Eyes No One Cares...

I hate today. I am not going to say why because It could be fixed but I cannot stand this heart and its stupidness..  This is how I feel:


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6aTCS-NacE

Deteriorate by Demon Hunter.

Time has had it's way with me.
My broken tired hands cant build a thing.
The wires that have held me still embedded now in flesh to find my will.
The idle of my days is won, the empty I have fed has made me numb,
Despite what you will find in me.

The failures of my past just swirl beneath.

I need a heart that carries on through the pain
When the walls start collapsing again.
Give me a soul that never ceases to follow,
Despite the infection within

Our careless feet leaving trails
Neverminding the fragile dirt we all end in.
Our careless feet leaving trails
Neverminding the fragile dirt we all end in.

This is where I find my fall the cares that held me alive don't work at all.
And every step away from here is closer to the plague I hold so dear.

I need a heart that carries on through the pain,
When the walls start collapsing again.
Give me a soul that never ceases to follow despite the infection within

Awaiting my end breathing in the day that finds me new.
Redemption begins bleeding out the flaws in place of you.
Awaiting my end breathing in the day that finds me new.
Redemption begins Redemption Begins.

Beautiful With You- Halestorm.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BhOt8hvQ3-8
One Thing I want to say, I don't care what this song says about being naked I love this song not about that part.

I stare at the girl in the mirror
T-shirt, torn up jeans, no beauty queen
But the way that you see me
You get underneath me
And all my defenses just fall away
Fall away

I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you

I stand naked before you now
No walls to hide behind
So here I am you see all of my scars
Still here you are
I bare my soul and I'm not afraid
Not afraid

I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you

I've been the strong one for so long
But I was wrong
Does it make you weak if you're needing someone?
I'm not holding back and I know what I want

I am beautiful with you
I am beautiful with you
You want me for myself
You get me like no one else
I am beautiful with you

I am beautiful with you
Even in the darkest part of me
I am beautiful with you
Make it feel the way it's supposed to be
You're here with me
Just show me this and I'll believe
I am beautiful with you

A Familiar Taste Of Poison. -Halestorm

Drink the wine my darling, you said
Take your time and consume all of it
But the roses were only to drain my inspiration
The promises were spoiled before they left your lips and

I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding onto the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison

I tell myself that you're are no good for me
I wish you well but desire never leaves
I could fight this to the end
But maybe I don't wanna win

I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding onto the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison

I don't wanna be saved, I don't wanna be sober
I want you on my mind, in my dreams
Behind these eyes that I wanna wake up
No, not this time

I breathe you in again
Just to feel you underneath my skin
Holding onto the sweet escape
Is always laced with a familiar taste of poison
A familiar taste of poison, a familiar taste of poison

The Perfect Two- Auburn.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-lLvtydTM78&safe=active


You can be the peanut butter to my jelly
You can be the butterflies I feel in my belly
You can be the captain
And I can be your first mate
You can be the chills that I feel on our first date

You can be the hero
And I can be your sidekick
You can be the tear that I cry if we ever split
You can be the rain from the cloud when it's stormin'
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the mornin'


Don't know if I could ever be
Without you 'cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
'Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

'Cause you're the one for me, for me
And I'm the one for you, for you
You take the both of us, of us
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/a/auburn/perfect_two.html ]
You can be the prince and I can be your princess
You can be the sweet tooth I can be the dentist
You can be the shoes and I can be the laces
You can be the heart that I spill on the pages
You can be the vodka and I can be the chaser
You can be the pencil and I can be the paper
You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together


Don't know if I could ever be
Without you 'cause boy you complete me
And in time I know that we'll both see
That we're all we need
Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Cause your the one for me, for me
And I'm the one for you, for you
You take the both of us, of us
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two

You know that I'll never doubt ya
And you know that I think about ya
And you know I can't live without ya
I love the way that you smile
And maybe in just a while
I can see me walk down the isle

'Cause you're the apple to my pie
You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

'Cause you're the one for me, for me
And I'm the one for you, for you
You take the both of us, of us
And we're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
We're the perfect two
Baby me and you
We're the perfect two
Yeah, yeah

The Most Awesome Voice Ever!

If You Can't Hang-Sleeping With Sirens
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_UwWYtLWEZg

If I'm James Dean, Then You're Audrey Hepburn: I love this song!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=poZLiypLJzQ

King For a Day- Pierce the veil ft. Sleeping with Sirens
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=icXUkIfZxyg

I Seriously Love You.

On the 27th of this month, it was Jake and I's one year and I have to say that I really love him. This is the longest relationship I've had and the most I've ever been in love with someone. Jake and I plan on getting married not right away probably when I'm 19,20. We have a dog together and everyday we hang out I fall more in love with him. This is probably the only time you'll hear me get all moshy haha, I like to talk about my relationship but I don't know some people don't like that I keep talking about it. I know this isn't the longest relationship he's had but it means a lot to me that he still love me and cares. I started dating when I was 13 and every single relationship I kid you not the guy's would all cheat on me and use me, and sometimes abuse me and that's all I've ever known because no one has ever loved me like Jake. I used to say that love isn't real because if it was I could feel it whenever. Besides Jake my longest relationship was 11 months and guess what, that guy dumped me right before one year and said he cheated on me the whole time, and keep in mind that relationship was when I was 14 and I couldn't see him everyday and he cheated on me the whole time. After that I hated everything, I would come home after school, sleep until the next morning, and go back to school and I would repeat this everyday and I have a big problem with depression. I met Jake when I was 16 and he was 17 and everything seemed great and then once his ex tried stepping in trying to take him back, I had already loved him and was too scared to lose him and she just kept trying and trying and then I got very suicidal and then they had talked about their old relationship and he basically said you cheated on me after 3 years and I hate you, and he started focussing on me again. We went to prom but only for 15 minutes because his ex was there and tried being all over him, I literally ran out of that building and ripped up my flowers and ripped my hair down because it was up, and I had the biggest break down and we both were crying on the way home. I've been through a lot in my life. When I first started dating I always thought I had to date because my father left me and my mother when I was 2 months old and yeah I would see him but I never wanted to because I wanted mom but now he won't even talk to me or text so I always thought that if I had a boyfriend he could give me love and attention my father never could. And I found that in Jake, also Jake in some ways not to be scary but some ways he reminds me of my father when my father was still single, and that's the dad I miss.

OH NO!

My glow in the black light fish died both last week, and I forgot how to take care of fish cause I haven't had one in like 4 years so I fed it three times a day everyday. Jake's mom said you feed it every other day and like two times a day. Oops, but today if I get paid I am going to buy two more because honestly Jake was so sad about it. Here's to black light fish!

Cool Stuff!

This is what I got yesterday:
It is fish that glow in the black light they are really cool, I got them from Petco but they were $8.99 each and I got two of them. They eat tropical fish food so I think that it is tropical fish.
Their names are "Sir Nuke 'Em" Don't ask, and "Spazz." My fish likes to go around the bowl in fast circles and Jake's fish goes back and forth and I think that it may have some problems, I bought them a little Krusty Krab center piece for their tank and they love it.


http://petslady.com/files/imagecache/BlogTeaserImage/blog1/GloFish_Electric_Green_Tetra.jpg

Thanksgiving Feast.

Everyone is in a rush to get things done, finally once everything is done we will get the food we deserved this whole time. Cookie I wish you were here to enjoy the thanksgiving feast with us at school one last time, but I know you will be here in spirit. Today at school we are ready for the Thanksgiving Feast and it will be great once we get things done after all. My favorite thing about Thanksgiving is all the turkey, sweet potatoes, pumpkin pie, potatoes, and the bread! don't forget pickles and olives. What am I thankful for? My family and my own family which consists of my dog and boyfriend, and friends that care.

Work!

Everyone says whoa you worked a 10 hour shift welcome to my world and stuff well when you are used to your part time job and then you work all day it hurts and its not easy. Yesterday was alright I mean I got three different breaks and it was fun but I was so tired! I am enjoying my job at TjMaxx because your not just doing one thing your doing many things. I've worked in the following so far: Sales floor which I've been working in most of the departments, register, in the back stocking, and fitting rooms. I mean its not a lot but the pay is good and some people are nice so why not like this job? I really like this job.

Vote No On Gay Marriage.

I know my mother is going to kill me but oh well I'll take those chances. I want to vote no but I am also under age. Its hard because my mom is religious and in the bible it says "one man and one woman" and that's what my mom believes and I love her and I will not put her down but I feel that people who are gay should have to right to do what they want and if they really want to get married then so be it go get married. I love gay people they are my life! haha they are amazing and understanding, and I want to be able to help them. Jeffie Massey is my best friend and I call him my twin because we have the same piercings and close to the same colored skin and hair type and we love each other and I want to help him and his boyfriend. A lot of people have their ways and everyone has their rights, but don't put people down because they want to get married, its not like they are saying hey lets make gay porn no they just simply want to get married and live their lives like we people do in our everyday lives. I just would hate to see this all go bad and have many friends that are gay go depressed. If they did put a ban or try to get rid of gay married then hell I would gather them and say lets go get you married in Las Vegas. But please do not right any hate comments on this but this is what I believe in and this is what I'm going to support. LETS GO GAY MARRIED 2012! VOTE NO!!! And p.s. you don't have to be gay to vote for this but if you have loved ones that are gay I would suggest voting no, I have family and my real fathers side that are gay and many friends screw this twisted government! don't be a homophobe vote no! thank you for reading!!!!!

New Piercings I Want!

Hello new pay check, and hello piercings!

Just Me.

I think of myself as different. Like today I wore my Pikachu hat and my lip rings are mismatched and I'm wearing my crazy yellow and black plaid pants :). why? I don't do it for attention or because I feel like it, something tells me "oh this is right, this is cool" and its just me I can't describe it. I also haven't worn my Pikachu hat since Cookie died and when he was alive and I brought it to school he would take it from me and wear it and finally bring it back to me. I wear what I wear because it makes me feel comfortable and I like it. More of my style is crazy things and neon things, band shirts, and crazy colored skinny jeans, always have a song stuck in my head and often singing it around everywhere I go. I was a shy person but I have blossomed into someone who is more outgoing. I love piercings and wish to have a lot more. Once I have more money I am going to get piercings :) trust me! I'm going out of town this weekend but next week I can pick up my check whenever cause it get it this Friday!

To A Friend.

I'm thinking that it's time to get out
My patients are fading fast
The mind bruises just a little bit easier
Dark times and shadows cast

What are you suffering for?
Your pride or some kind of personal war?
And when you throw it away.
For nothing more than a simple taste.

[Chorus]
I'll stay in time and watch you pass by
[paranoia woven deep beneath my skin]
I'll draw this line
and hope you'll take my side (breath slow, breath slow)
you shouldn't have to fight alone
[you shouldn't have to fight at all]
its nobody's battle but your own

panic holds me like a gun
firm and steadfast bleak and cold
I think its time to kill the drama
This life style's getting old

whispers behind closed doors
eyes spy from dark windows
plotting minds that seek to harm me, or maybe not
I don't really know

There is something waiting for me
in the darkest part of my imagination

[Chorus]
I'll stay in time and watch you pass by
[paranoia woven deep beneath my skin]
I'll draw this line
and hope you'll take my side (breath slow, breath slow)
you shouldn't have to fight alone
[you shouldn't have to fight at all]
its nobody's battle but your own

This is just self-induced terror
there's more to come
this is just a glimpse
I tell myself it's all in my head
but I'm pretty hard to convince

Oh, there's no relief
Oh, this world can offer
Oh, there's no relief
Oh, this world can offer me

I'll stay in time and watch you pass by
I'll draw this line
and hope you'll take my side
You shouldn't have to fight alone
It's nobody's battle but your own

Song.

If you're looking for a good song go look up:
"To A Friend" by Alexisonfire I don't know what music you like but this song is amazing! so give it a chance and listen! WARNING: this song they scream so don't blast the song!

Can't Wait.

So Jake and I are officially looking for apartments to rent, so far we found 3,4 places now we are waiting for call backs but they are nice places for Stillwater. Now that I'm working and Jake has a full time job at Radio Shack and a part time job at Game Stop I think with our money combined we will make it, Jake's mom Jamie said she would pay the down payment and damage deposit but after that she cannot help which is fine because we just need help with that part but everything is going good. Jake and I's one year anniversary is November 27th 2012 :) so things are looking up, I don't think I've ever been this happy ever! No one has proved to me that they will stay and not cheat or use me and guess what? Jake has proven that he won't hurt me or just leave me. This weekend is my road test in Bemidji Mn, and Jake, Jamie and I are going up their cabin for the weekend because it is close to my road test so this is like a road trip for a  license and if I pass this will be a story to tell. But that's my little update for now, catch ya later!

Saddest Day Of My Life That Still Haunts Me...

The day you died made me cry, I miss you. You're more than a best friend cookie you were like a brother always giving me advice and making me believe that I am more than some boring girl. That day you died killed me dude, trust me. Someone told me that you drowned and I thought "what??? he knows how to swim" but then they told me where and what had happened and I just broke down in tears and couldn't hold myself together, even at your funeral was so hard to be at but I showed up cause I know you would do the same if it were me. I'm sorry you had to go but soon again my friend we all will be surrounded by you and asking how you are and just talk. That was probably the worst/saddest day of my life.

Tjmaxx

Finally tomorrow I start at Tjmaxx and it starts from 3:30 to 7:30 hopefully seeing Jake cause he won't like this change but it'll all be good because I want to move out so this is another step ahead now. Know anywhere that is hiring? Jake needs a job!

Falling From The Sky (Day Seven)-Norma Jean

You have never taken any inspiration in a direction that won't end up with the death of you.
Do you really think all the saints are just lying... just lying... just lying in their graves?

Where are we supposed to go? I want you to remember this.
Just because I understand, doesn't mean I really care.

Have you become smarter than your own father?
Are you ready to lead with no lesson?
Your death will bring you all the answers that you've been looking for.
How does it feel to kill?

Where are we supposed to go?
I want you to remember this.
Just because I understand, doesn't really mean I care.

The fruit has been tasted and their blood is on your hands.
You won't know the truth soon enough my friend.
Did you think that ended it? Do you really think it's over?
You will have all of the answers soon enough my friend.
You're standing near the edge.

Falling from the sky, day one. You never learned to fly.
Falling into the ocean, day seven. You never learned to swim.
Sinking to the bottom of the ocean, day twenty. How could you see the bottom?
Sinking to the bottom of the ocean, day one hundred... day one hundred... day one hundred.

Why can't you see the bottom? Why can't you see the bottom?
Why can't you see?
Why can't you see the bottom? Why can't you see the bottom?
Why can't you see? Why can't you see?

Why can't you see? Why can't you see? Why can't you see?
Why can't you see? Why can't you see? 

Dubstep. Look it up.

Dubstep is amazing if you like it, most people think its annoying or think its a waste of music, I think if you really love bass and stuff like that then you will love dubstep. Dubstep is a way of life, its in my life 90% of the time.

Listen to the following:

Feed Me-Strange Behaviour
Feed Me/Gimini-Whiskers
Feed Me- Grand Theft Ectasy

Pendulum - The Island

Feed Me-Blood Red

Emalkay-When I Look At You

Flux Pavillion- I Can't Stop

Feed Me- One Click Headshot

I suppose Skrillex would be okay.

Black Sun Empire- Hyper Sun

Nero- Doomsday 

Nero- Welcome Reality

Nero-Promises

Zeds Dead- Skrillex weekends remix

Zeds Dead- Blue Foundation

Sabi(Zeds Dead Remix)- Wild Hearts

Zeds Dead- The Pretender

Zeds Dead- Here Comes The Boom

DatsiK/Excision-Swagga

Excision- Existence

Excision-Subsonic

Chrispy- Inspector Gadget 

xCore-Beast Mode

Ry Legit-Buzz Lightyear

Dubba Johnny- A Brief Tutorial on Dubstep Production

Dubba Johnny- All in

Dubba Johnny- A Brief Tutorial on VIP Production

xCore- Magnum

Skream- Make Me

Chrispy - Bass Invaders & Red Alert

Bar9 - Shaolin (Elite Force Re-Edit)

Nero - This Way

NiT GriT - 12 Gauge

DJ Fresh - Gold Dust (Flux Pavilion Remix)

Mstrkrft - Heartbreaker (12th Planet Remix)

Passion Pit - Sleepyhead (Borgore Remix)

ANY BORGORE(warning some of the things Borgore has can be sexual)

thats all I can think of for now.