You Are Fired.

So March 19th  I went into work to ask for more hours after my spring break adventure. My friend Emily had said where were you? and I had asked what? she said the day before I had the night shift but never showed up, I went to my boss and had asked why they never called, they always did. He had said that it wasn't up to them to call me that  I should know when I work, which is true but I hadn't looked and then I had asked if I could make up for it, maybe work another shift. My boss had said that won't be necessary and had asked if I would grab everything from my locker and to give my name badge to him. He had said I was late for the last time and that yesterday wasn't making it better. I hadn't worked a lot in the first place and its hard when you live so far away from your work, they had fired me. I went to my car and cried because its already hard that we have to move from Jake's parents house April 1st and it wasn't fair to Jake cause he was the only one working and I was supposed to be helping cause we didn't want to end up homeless, I also cried because its hard waking up and getting to school because I never feel good and that I was failing school and that even when I tried at school I still seemed  to fail. Now the temp agency called Jake two days ago and said that the job he was working at didn't need him anymore and that they would look for another job for him, they called last night and he has to call this place and see if he has the job. Its just scary cause I have no idea what to do, I am hoping that his mom won't tell us to leave the day we are supposed too but they reason why we have to leave is because originally she didn't like the fact I was pregnant and wanted us out but she moved the date we were supposed to later, now she's not mad she cannot wait to see her grandchild but her daughter Claire wants us out because she doesn't like us and that she's a stupid little brat and I am so nice to her everyday and shes just a bitch, excuse my language but its true. I'll keep you updated into what will happen.

A Year & 5 Months.

Today is Jake and I's year and 5 months nothing completely special but we have 7 more months until 2 years and that is what I cannot wait for, I've never been with someone this long and his longest relationship was 6 years but at different times so I'm trying to beat that. I know I'm the right one for him and he knows that as well, we do have arguments but never fight which is good. I just want him to stay because my dad left me when I was 2 months old and I hate him for it. I want Jake to be here for his kid but also with me so that everything appears fine, Jake shows no signs of leaving and he is always telling me that he never will. I want my kid to love his/her dad because I never got that love and I don't want my kids doing what I was doing, I always thought that I had to date someone because I never got that guy love from my own father and I was always ending up getting hurt in the end and I get attached too quick and I don't want my kid doing that because I have bad trust issues and I just worry all the time and I don't want my kid a nervous wreck like me. I want Jake to be there for school events and playing with his child and just to be a huge role in my child's life. I know Jake and I were and still aren't ready for this but we both agreed to stay and there's not much more trouble we could get into because the worst has happened and all we need to do is take the bull by the horns and just deal with it and get through it, I know we can its not always the hardest being parents but it is hard to watch another being but I know we can make it through and Jake realizes that now as well, I have faith in us. Parenting isn't the easiest so I am told and we will never get sleep and we may fight and lose our sanity but its worth it and Jake knows that as well. I have faith in us and so does he.

Some News I Left Out. I'm Pregnant.

Hey there again, so I forgot to tell everyone that I am pregnant. Most of you already know, but for the ones that don't well I am. I'm not ashamed or embarrassed, why? cause its too late now and who cares. I am in my second trimester I am 15 weeks and 2 days. So 3 months and 3 weeks. If I hold my breath I can hear its little heartbeat, that is just so amazing. The doctors said I have a healthy baby, its the right size and the heartbeat is 162 beats per minute and has been that way ever since I was 8 weeks along. My boyfriend and I are really excited, my boyfriend was always at work and he only saw pictures of the baby but hasn't gotten to actually see it moving, when I was 12 weeks along he came to my appointment but thought we were listening to heartbeat and that was it, they surprised him with a free ultrasound and cried when he saw it move. At first Jake was so scared but after a month went by and he realized it wasn't going away he got over it and now is taking care of me when I am my weakest. I didn't plan on getting pregnant but I have the best boyfriend in the whole world who is willing to stay which means everything to me. My friends and Jake think that I am having a boy. My mom and everyone on that side of the family even Jake's mom thinks I'm having a girl. Having a girl would be nice but just think then you have to be scared for her to get pregnant young. I get to find out the sex in 5 weeks. I am so excited.