CHIWEENIE!!!!!!!!!

Awwww look at that cute face :)
This is my newest baby!
Jake and I got a puppy and his name is Astro. What is a Chiweenie? Chiweenie's are not purebred they are a mix of Chihuahua and Dachshund. How big will they get? About 8 inches tall. How much will they weigh? About 5-10 pounds. We got him 2 days ago and he is perfect, he lets us know when he has to go potty and doesn't pee or poop the bed, he loves to roll down hills and yesterday we took him to this fenced in dog park and there is a big dog part of it and a little and he got to play with the big dogs cause we didn't want him to be alone. He loves cuddling and hiding in the tall grass, he stays by us and hes only 9 weeks old!!!
So you know what this means!!! Might have to get Astro a blogger as well :)

Lullaby.

It's the way that you blush when you're nervous.
It's your ability to make me earn this.
I know that you're tired, just let me sing you to sleep.
It's about how you laugh out of pity,
'Cause lets be honest I'm not really that funny.
I know that you're shot, just let me sing you to sleep.

If you need anything, just the say the word.
I mean anything.
Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in,
and plant my lips where your necklaces close.

It's those pills that you don't need to take,
medicating perfection, now that's a mistake.
I know that you're spent, just let me sing you to sleep.
It's your finger and how I'm wrapped around it.
It's your grace and how it keeps me grounded.
I know that you're weak, just let me sing you to sleep.

If you need anything, just the say the word.
I mean anything.
Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in,
and plant my lips where your necklaces close.

While you were sleeping I figured out everything,
I was constructed for you, and you were molded for me.
Now I feel your name, coursing through my veins.
You shine so bright it's insane, you put the sun to shame.

(Oh)

If you need anything, just the say the word.
I mean anything. (I really do)
Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in,
and plant my lips where your necklaces close.

If you need anything, just the say the word.
I mean anything.
Rest assured, if you start to doze, then I'll tuck you in,
and plant my lips where your necklaces close.

You know what I hate?

I am on Citalopram and its pronounced just as it looks and well its scary. Don't forget to take it because you will have the biggest freak out ever, you at first get really mad and then after that you get so sad and start crying over nothing. Some times if I forget to take it I just cry a lot over nothing and I freak myself out telling myself "I gotta get out of here I need to leave" cause if I don't then I have these weird feelings and I just keep crying. I know its the right pill for me if I don't forget about it. But this is an anti-anxiety pill which has a little bit of anti-depressants in it too. I used to cry like everyday back then like in middle school through 10th grade, so I'm always scared to cry now cause I feel like if I cry I won't be able to stop cause back then I would cry and it wouldn't end until like an hour later, but when I take this medication and I'm on it then I feel like I don't have to cry and if I cry while on it, I don't cry for long. I'm a weird child but at least I know I'm loved :)

Swish.

Swisher has a blog account, just thought I should let you know. search either Swisher sweets or his email is: swishersweetstweets@gmail.com  I will try to follow him so you can get a hold of him.

The New Hair.

I haven't done purple yet so take a look and leave some comments...

Growing up

I just want to stay the age I am and just crawl in bed and hide in my blankets. When we are young we want to be older but now that we're older we want to be younger, why is this? because when you're little you think that when your older you will have an easy life and have things handed down to you and everything will be planned,wrong. Now that you're older you realize, crap now that I have to work for what I want this sucks, you end up paying a lot for what you want and working all the time. The best thing is those who  can balance seeing people and working and still being happy, that's my problem I cannot work this out yet. I'm trying to get a job so I can save up for my car first then after once I have that under control I save money to get an apartment and my boyfriend has to help with that as well and after once we get a place I have to still graduate so I'll be going to school, working, and trying to pay my bills and see everyone. Soon after once I've graduated and have money for college, Jake and I are going to Anoka and while he's at the tech part I'll be going to the Health department to learn about the body and after that be supervised under a professional body piercer and then I'm set. I love piercing even though you may not make a lot of money when you are in this career you will most likely be paid $100.00 an hour. I want to be the inspiration of those and its not just something a "freak" would do its art , along with tattoo's its art. I want to help others that want to be creative to be expressive.

Swisher!!!!!!!!!! ^-^

keeping up with swisher<3 4months now

Losing A Friend...

Its sad losing one friend but two? come on how could this be I lost the two that meant a lot to me and were like brothers to me and now I can't say goodbye and I never got to say goodbye to one of them. Here's the story on Jacob's death: Jacob Zachary Campbell, 10/12/10 was the date and at 7:40pm I saw on facebook that someone said "Jacob and Lisa, their dead," and I didn't think it was the Jacob I know, turned on the tv to Fox's news and sure enough it was. Before his death about a year ago when I was in 8th grade going into 9th grade and I was dating a guy named Evan Bing and everyday I would see him and we would walk over to Tom and Jacob's house and we had so many adventures and then middle of 9th grade when Evan broke up with me I stopped talking to everyone that we hung out with and they all started to hate me and turn on me but not Jacob he would still talk to me and sit by me on the bus, we could never hang out because no one liked me anymore but then we started to fade and stopped talking and then I heard about the news and even in school Mr.Quick brought it up and I hated talking about it. Last year when it happened I was in ALC for three hours and the rest of the day at the high school and friends saw me depressed and then two councilors and a cop came to my class in the high school and said "someone said you were going to kill yourself in the bathroom because you are depressed about your friend," and that was the first little giggle they heard because yes I was depressed but not enough to kill myself and so I told them "yes I'm depressed but killing myself? that's a bit too far," and they said okay well we will leave you alone just talk to our intern Kelly and so we talked and that's the end of Jacob's death that I would like to talk about. About Cookie's death: Alexander "Cookie" Cook, 6/18/12 was the day and Kayla Pesek texted me saying Cookie drowned but foolish me I didn't believe it at all and I was at my boyfriend's Jake's house and so I went upstairs and searched it but nothing came up but then I posted on Facebook "somebody better tell me about Cookie!!!!," and people posted on my status about what happened. I remember I ran from the computer in tears ran outside to Jake and held him tightly and I could barely talk and Jake said "was it him? is it true?" and I just shook my head and I wouldn't stop crying for about an hour. The storm that happened that night was Cookie I know it because when it happened that's when they found his body, he went down at 4:57pm and they didn't find him until 11:45pm and in a report I saw it says that he went a third of the way and then once he knew something was wrong he tried turning around to the shore but that's when he slipped under the water and drowned. The next day I talked to Maryrose, Cookie's girlfriend and she is just so depressed and she told me that when she was at the beach and they were looking for him that she said "Cookie if you wanted to break up with me you could have told me," and everyone got a chuckle but she also told me that the storm was him and that he sleeps with her every night she can feel him. Maryrose told me that when they found him, he was 18 feet down and 30 feet from the shoreline, and Maryrose said "he wore his damn pants, he always wears those damn pants no matter what" and she thought it was foolish, she also told me "Cookie said he counted you as one of his best friends, he said you guys had good moments together and had a lot of bro moments together," "also one day I told him that I didn't really like you and he got really mad and said "well you don't have to like her she's my friend not yours," but now I am friends with Maryrose and I try to help her as much as I can. I remember at the health fair we went to the tent where they were talking about being people that did drugs back then and now they are here to help you and "know the truth" about drugs and when I got my bracelet I had a crack in mine and after they packed up I complained to Cookie that mine was cracked and I would never get a new one and he said "oh stop being a drama queen, here have mine" so that's why I were it everyday. We just had a lot of fun and had so many inside jokes and he told me that if Jake (my boyfriend) treats me wrong that he was going to beat his face in because Cookie knows of how many people treated me wrongly and cheated on me and just broke my heart. I don't really know what happened to Cookie but when Jake and I were at his funeral when I first saw his body and I cried badly into Gabby Garcia's arms, something touched my back and I asked if anyone even her touched my back and no one did, I knew it was cook. Before I got to say goodbye to his body the last time I stood by his German jacket on the chair and it was on there pretty good on its hanger and no one was even close to it and all of a sudden his jacket fell, I was shocked so was everyone by his jacket. When Jake's mom picked us up she said I don't really believe in superstitious stuff but they say once someone dies they're spirit is still by the body a couple days and then it fades away so at the funeral Cookie was with us. I didn't have a note or a cookie to throw in the casket but I put my lucky cigarette in there and everyone put theirs in there as well. It was sad because Maryrose wanted to put her rings that she always wears in there but Cookie's guardian said don't honey you keep those because I know you want it to go with him but most of this stuff that's on him will probably get burned because its food and cigarettes and she cried and put her rings back on. I don't really want to talk about it anymore because after that I couldn't sleep, I haven't gotten myself to eat in three days after that, but I will miss them both. When I miss Jacob I play the song "Road To Nowhere" by Bullet For My Valentine and when I miss Cookie I play the song "If I Knew" by Every Avenue