To A Friend.

I'm thinking that it's time to get out
My patients are fading fast
The mind bruises just a little bit easier
Dark times and shadows cast

What are you suffering for?
Your pride or some kind of personal war?
And when you throw it away.
For nothing more than a simple taste.

[Chorus]
I'll stay in time and watch you pass by
[paranoia woven deep beneath my skin]
I'll draw this line
and hope you'll take my side (breath slow, breath slow)
you shouldn't have to fight alone
[you shouldn't have to fight at all]
its nobody's battle but your own

panic holds me like a gun
firm and steadfast bleak and cold
I think its time to kill the drama
This life style's getting old

whispers behind closed doors
eyes spy from dark windows
plotting minds that seek to harm me, or maybe not
I don't really know

There is something waiting for me
in the darkest part of my imagination

[Chorus]
I'll stay in time and watch you pass by
[paranoia woven deep beneath my skin]
I'll draw this line
and hope you'll take my side (breath slow, breath slow)
you shouldn't have to fight alone
[you shouldn't have to fight at all]
its nobody's battle but your own

This is just self-induced terror
there's more to come
this is just a glimpse
I tell myself it's all in my head
but I'm pretty hard to convince

Oh, there's no relief
Oh, this world can offer
Oh, there's no relief
Oh, this world can offer me

I'll stay in time and watch you pass by
I'll draw this line
and hope you'll take my side
You shouldn't have to fight alone
It's nobody's battle but your own

Song.

If you're looking for a good song go look up:
"To A Friend" by Alexisonfire I don't know what music you like but this song is amazing! so give it a chance and listen! WARNING: this song they scream so don't blast the song!

Can't Wait.

So Jake and I are officially looking for apartments to rent, so far we found 3,4 places now we are waiting for call backs but they are nice places for Stillwater. Now that I'm working and Jake has a full time job at Radio Shack and a part time job at Game Stop I think with our money combined we will make it, Jake's mom Jamie said she would pay the down payment and damage deposit but after that she cannot help which is fine because we just need help with that part but everything is going good. Jake and I's one year anniversary is November 27th 2012 :) so things are looking up, I don't think I've ever been this happy ever! No one has proved to me that they will stay and not cheat or use me and guess what? Jake has proven that he won't hurt me or just leave me. This weekend is my road test in Bemidji Mn, and Jake, Jamie and I are going up their cabin for the weekend because it is close to my road test so this is like a road trip for a  license and if I pass this will be a story to tell. But that's my little update for now, catch ya later!

Saddest Day Of My Life That Still Haunts Me...

The day you died made me cry, I miss you. You're more than a best friend cookie you were like a brother always giving me advice and making me believe that I am more than some boring girl. That day you died killed me dude, trust me. Someone told me that you drowned and I thought "what??? he knows how to swim" but then they told me where and what had happened and I just broke down in tears and couldn't hold myself together, even at your funeral was so hard to be at but I showed up cause I know you would do the same if it were me. I'm sorry you had to go but soon again my friend we all will be surrounded by you and asking how you are and just talk. That was probably the worst/saddest day of my life.

Tjmaxx

Finally tomorrow I start at Tjmaxx and it starts from 3:30 to 7:30 hopefully seeing Jake cause he won't like this change but it'll all be good because I want to move out so this is another step ahead now. Know anywhere that is hiring? Jake needs a job!

Falling From The Sky (Day Seven)-Norma Jean

You have never taken any inspiration in a direction that won't end up with the death of you.
Do you really think all the saints are just lying... just lying... just lying in their graves?

Where are we supposed to go? I want you to remember this.
Just because I understand, doesn't mean I really care.

Have you become smarter than your own father?
Are you ready to lead with no lesson?
Your death will bring you all the answers that you've been looking for.
How does it feel to kill?

Where are we supposed to go?
I want you to remember this.
Just because I understand, doesn't really mean I care.

The fruit has been tasted and their blood is on your hands.
You won't know the truth soon enough my friend.
Did you think that ended it? Do you really think it's over?
You will have all of the answers soon enough my friend.
You're standing near the edge.

Falling from the sky, day one. You never learned to fly.
Falling into the ocean, day seven. You never learned to swim.
Sinking to the bottom of the ocean, day twenty. How could you see the bottom?
Sinking to the bottom of the ocean, day one hundred... day one hundred... day one hundred.

Why can't you see the bottom? Why can't you see the bottom?
Why can't you see?
Why can't you see the bottom? Why can't you see the bottom?
Why can't you see? Why can't you see?

Why can't you see? Why can't you see? Why can't you see?
Why can't you see? Why can't you see? 

Dubstep. Look it up.

Dubstep is amazing if you like it, most people think its annoying or think its a waste of music, I think if you really love bass and stuff like that then you will love dubstep. Dubstep is a way of life, its in my life 90% of the time.

Listen to the following:

Feed Me-Strange Behaviour
Feed Me/Gimini-Whiskers
Feed Me- Grand Theft Ectasy

Pendulum - The Island

Feed Me-Blood Red

Emalkay-When I Look At You

Flux Pavillion- I Can't Stop

Feed Me- One Click Headshot

I suppose Skrillex would be okay.

Black Sun Empire- Hyper Sun

Nero- Doomsday 

Nero- Welcome Reality

Nero-Promises

Zeds Dead- Skrillex weekends remix

Zeds Dead- Blue Foundation

Sabi(Zeds Dead Remix)- Wild Hearts

Zeds Dead- The Pretender

Zeds Dead- Here Comes The Boom

DatsiK/Excision-Swagga

Excision- Existence

Excision-Subsonic

Chrispy- Inspector Gadget 

xCore-Beast Mode

Ry Legit-Buzz Lightyear

Dubba Johnny- A Brief Tutorial on Dubstep Production

Dubba Johnny- All in

Dubba Johnny- A Brief Tutorial on VIP Production

xCore- Magnum

Skream- Make Me

Chrispy - Bass Invaders & Red Alert

Bar9 - Shaolin (Elite Force Re-Edit)

Nero - This Way

NiT GriT - 12 Gauge

DJ Fresh - Gold Dust (Flux Pavilion Remix)

Mstrkrft - Heartbreaker (12th Planet Remix)

Passion Pit - Sleepyhead (Borgore Remix)

ANY BORGORE(warning some of the things Borgore has can be sexual)

thats all I can think of for now.